So yesterday morning i weighed in at 124lbs this morning im back up to 127 after eating with the boyfriend . I basically ate my whole body weight in chocolate.
In trying to be better today but i feel physically awful and i know for a fact its because of what iv eaten. Its amazing how restricting and fasting makes me feel. Almost pure . Iv feel really ill this morning its similar to that hangover feeling you get but after cramming alnost 2000 calories in my body im not suprised i feeo like fucking crap.
I hope this doesnt throw me off the track. Im hungry right now but i need to calm it. Iv taken a laxative to to try and settle my stomach
I pray to god im not back where i started monday. I still have another two days to spend with him theres no way i cant eat. It sounds really sad but when i feel like im slipping i just look at photos of his ex girlfriend . Shes beautiful in everyway and i would never compare.
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